Friday, November 09, 2012

Out for a hike

The weatherman says it's supposed to snow this weekend so we had to take advantage of the beautiful fall day today. We went for a hike in the Boulder green space that is near our house. It's official - I love where we live. And I really love these boys.


Monday, October 29, 2012

Lots of growing and going!

The past couple weeks have been busy and fun. Clark is doing all sorts of new thing. He's tried a couple solids. He loved avocados and didn't care for apple sauce. It was probably a little sour for him. At least that's what the look on his face said! He can sit up steadily on his own for quite a but of time now, and he can stand with only a little help for balance. He's rearin' to go during tummy time. He holds his body up on his arms and legs and rocks back and forth like he's about to crawl. It's so cute.

This past week Clark and I have been visiting my sister, Wendy, and her family in Northern California. Today Wendy is nine + months pregnant and her due date was the 25th.

This baby has spoiled all of our plans (welcome to motherhood!). I came here last Monday to help take care of their first little one, Genevieve, when Wendy and Adam go to the hospital for the delivery. Genevieve came two days before her due date so Wendy and I were sure this was the perfect timing for my trip. However, I leave tomorrow and unless there is a birthday party in the night tonight, Clark and I won't get to meet the little man. Bummer! Bigger bummer for Wendy who is so done with being pregnant. She is beautiful and is being awesome nonetheless.

So instead of having a baby, we've done all sorts of fun stuff to stay busy and get out of the house. We ate Prego Pizza at Skipolini's Pizza in Walnut Creek. The pizza is loaded with toppings and is claimed to be able to induce labor. So far it's only caused heart burn!  We went to Joan's Farm in Livermore to check out the pumpkin patch. We went to story time at the library and to In 'n Out Burger for lunch. We ran errands and went for walks. We took Genevieve and Clark to the Trunk or Treat at church. Wendy made a fabulous 'Rella' costume for G that she had to wear at the ball, of course. And we met up with Ben's cousin, Amy, and her baby, Hazel, at Baker Beach where we saw the Golden Gate Bridge, pretty waves, seals, doggies, sand and nudists (from afar).

More than anything, I've enjoyed being with Wendy and seeing a bit if her day to day life. But Clark and I are ready to get back home. We miss Ben!










Saturday, October 13, 2012

Clark's newest trick

He never wants to sit. It's standing or up in arms. His latest development is to stand on his own with the help of a box or something just his size for balance.
(I don't know how to get this app to rotate pictures.)


Thursday, October 11, 2012

Six months!

Clark turned 6 months old on the 10th! It's crazy how fast time flies. I never imagined how much having a baby would redefine love for me. It's hard to describe, but it's almost a palpable feeling. It's like my heart is beating outside of my body now and it's the best feeling in the world!

This boy is loads of fun! He loves playing with anything that is black, metal, shiny, or for big people - things like keys, keyboards, a toothbrush, phones, pots, kitchen utensils, plastic bags, boxes, lids, purse straps; you get the point. He is really strong and always wants to stand up. He's so close to crawling; I'm sure he'll take off sooner than later, but it wouldn't surprise me if he walks first. He rarely sits still or even sits for that matter. He's a little comedian and makes funny faces and noises to get mommy and daddy to laugh. He likes going on walks and being outside. He giggles when we push him on the swing in the park. He loves stuffed animals and tries to talk to them and eat their eyeballs. He responds really well to classical music and his lullaby CD is the only thing that works in the car. He likes to set with Ben at the piano and bang on the keys.

If he's ever fussy it's because he's tired, hungry or needs a new diaper (like most babies). He takes two to three 45 minute naps a day and has a bad habit of only wanting mom to put his Binky in his mouth when he stirs.  Otherwise he's generally a happy little guy. And we love him more than the moon and the sky! I feel so lucky to be his mom!


Tuesday, October 09, 2012

Lap baby class

Today we went to a lap baby class at the Boulder Library. Clark loves the songs and stories. He also loves seeing other babies and playing with toys. I enjoyed learning a little about early literacy and language development. I also liked chatting with other moms after the class.


Wednesday, October 03, 2012

Update

A lot has happened since my last post. I just put the blogger app on my phone so I think blogging just got easier!

Our most recent news is that we are back in Colorado. We loved living in Utah for the summer; I felt like it was a gift to be close to family for a few months. I'll write a more lengthy post when I have some time to share the highlights of the summer.

For now, here are a few recent pics of Clark. Where did six months go? He's a big boy (75% on weight and 65% on height). He's almost crawling and he talks a lot. People tend to think he looks like Ben. I'm ok with that because I think Ben is handsome! I also see some of me in him when I get past the brown eyes, tan skin and dark hair. :) I just love this boy!





Friday, June 22, 2012

Catching Up

So much has happened in the past two and a half months. I wish I had blogged more but finding time to get on the computer is more challenging than I expected.  With this post, I hope to get caught up.  It's really long.  Sorry about that.  Enjoy...


See Clark Grow:
Clark's growing amazes me.  I swear, sometimes I can see him grow.  His little body is expanding in all directions at an incredibly fast rate.  I wouldn't expect less from a two month old.  The changes are subtle, but if I blink twice they become extreme.  And I'm his mom.  People who don't see him all day like I do tell me he's exploding (in a good way).  I have loved every minute of it.  Well, except those minutes when I'm completely exhausted and he's fussy or crying and won't be consoled.  (Yes, my perfect baby has those moments.)


For the most part, he is happy, always kicking or moving, and bright eyed.  He's very aware of his surroundings and he knows when I'm around or not.  He smiles easily and makes the cutest cooing sounds ever.  I can't describe how much I love him!


Here's some pics to show you what I mean (in no particular order):
10 Weeks



Meeting Grandpa Voorhees

Just Chillin

On our way home from the hospital

Hours after arrival

I surrender!
Wearing 3 month clothes at 6 weeks
Love the rolls
3 Weeks

Sleeper creeper
2 weeks
Six Weeks

Hanging with Trichlers:
Two of my favorite people were in town a couple weeks ago.  David and Rachel were here for a wedding.  Thankfully, David posted about how good it was to be in Utah on Facebook, which tipped me off on their whereabouts.  We met up a Cafe Rio to catch up.  They are such cool people - I loved hearing about their new house, their careers, and some of their other adventures.  While we were there, who should walk in?  None other than the infamous Matt Fischer, another DC favorite.  Good times.  :)

Solar Eclipse:
On the evening of May 20, there was a solar eclipse here in Utah.  Ben's dad got out the dark glass from his welding mask so we could enjoy the rare event.  

The last time I remember witnessing a solar eclipse was when I was in 5th grade.  My teacher poked holes in some paper and told us to hold it up to the sun so that the light will shine through producing a pin hole image of the sun.  I didn't understand that I wasn't supposed to look through the pin holes.  I remember being frustrated because I couldn't tell if anything was happening to the sun at all. 

I'm glad I didn't miss it this year.  My favorite part about it was the way that everything felt dimmed - the shadow of the mood made the brightness of the day lessen.  When it passed, the brightness came back.

Moving Grandma and Grandpa:
Ben's Grandma and Grandpa Durtschi are wonderful people.  Grandpa turned 90 last March and Grandma is a few years younger than he is.  Their lives are admirable and I wish I had known them when they were younger.  They've lived in the same house in Boise, ID for over 60 years.  Grandpa practiced law for 60 years and was a judge for the state of Idaho for 20 of them.  Grandma was a homemaker, but she also taught piano lessons and she received her degree in business administration from Idaho State.  

For the past few years, Grandma's cognitive health has deteriorated and has finally rendered them unable to take care of themselves.  When Grandma called the police and told them that Grandpa was trying to kill her (false alarm), Ben's mom, Kathryn, and his Aunt Susan decided it was finally time for them to move to Utah where the family could take care of them.  So after a couple weeks in a care center, they moved into Ben's parent's house just days before we got here.  This was a temporary arrangement until a new condo, where they could receive assistance, was ready for them to move into.

They need a lot of help. Grandma's dementia has made her really confused about her whereabouts and the people around her.  This makes her really angry, which she mostly channels at Grandpa.  

Kathryn and Susan have worked with a doctor and home nurse to figure out some medication to help Grandma calm down.  The meds have helped a lot, but watch out if they start to wear off.  The rest of us have spent hours and hours "visiting them," playing the piano for them, and going on walks with them.  Grandma loves seeing the baby.  They've needed full time attention and it's been exhausting.   

Last Sunday, June 2, the condo was finally ready and it was time to move Grandma and Grandpa to their own place.  This kind of thing is never easy.  Grandpa had become accustomed to being in the house where he had constant help with Grandma.  Grandma had been asking to go home to Boise on an hourly basis for the past six weeks so the hope was that seeing her furniture and belongings in this place would make her feel at home.  The move has been challenging, but they are being well taken care of and the rest of the family can relax a little. 

While this has been a fairly inconvenient situation, I can't help but feel grateful for it.  I've been able to get to know and love these grandparents in the late years of their life.  It's also given us the opportunity to serve in our own home on a regular basis.  That kind of service has had a unique way of strengthening our family. The situation has also made us all think about getting old, getting crazy, and hoping for the best in our later years. 

Zach's Restaurant:
Earlier this year, my brother opened a restaurant in Payson, UT.  Poor Boys BBQ and Dawgs.  I'm really proud of him.  The food is delicious and I can tell that he's put tons of hard work into it.  We've eaten there several times and my favorite things are his pulled pork, polish dawgs, baked beans and the mac 'n cheese.



Time with Wendy:
After Zach's wedding, my sister Wendy stayed in Utah for a few extra days to spend more time with me.  I loved every second of it!  She and I are best friends and I especially enjoy it when we get together.  We both stayed with our babies at our Grandpa Voorhees' house in Sandy since neither of us have a place to accommodate a visitor here in Utah.  It was so fun to stay there - my grandpa is an incredible man and I appreciate every chance I get to be with him.


I LOVED spending that time with Wendy and her sweet baby Genevieve.  She helped me brave getting out with a one month old, and we went to Thanksgiving Point and explored like kids.  We also went to the splash pad at the Gateway mall.





Clark's Baby Blessing:
On May 13, Ben had the opportunity to give Clark a Priesthood blessing and have his name added to the records of the Church.  Clark didn't love the experience.  He cried the whole time.  No, he wailed the whole way through.  Ben said that it was rather disconcerting trying to feel the Spirit and say nice things while holding an angry baby.  It was a beautiful blessing, nonetheless, and I was grateful for all the family and friends who were there to support us. 









My Brother's Wedding:
This has been a big year for Zach.  Not only did he open his own restaurant, but he also found the woman of his dreams, Libby Coleman, and married her on May 12. 


The wedding was magical!  The setting, the flowers, the decorations, the cake and the cakes, and best of all the gathering of family was perfect.  I marked it as one of the happiest days of my life - my whole family in one place... that just doesn't happen often.


I love Libby.  She is perfect for my brother.  I am grateful that they found each other and am grateful to have her and her sweet boy, Hayden, as part of our family. 

Moving:
One of the big advantages of Ben being in the software business is that he can work from anywhere.  For the last year, he's worked from home, which means that we get to spend a lot more time together than I imagine we would if he worked at a law firm or for another company.  Having him around has been especially nice since Clark came.  (I can't believe how many times I've said, 'honey, can you do one more favor for me?'  I found myself incapable of doing much when my arms were occupied with a baby almost 24/7.)


Anyway, when we moved into our last apartment, we signed a lease for only 7 months, which would put us there until one month after Clark was born.  Then we would move to Lake Shore, UT for the summer where we could live with Ben's parents and be close to family.


I hate moving.  Packing up our apartment with a one month old baby was no fun.  Luckily, we didn't really settle in much and most of our stuff was still in boxes in the garage. And we had a lot of help - Ben's brother came and my Aunt Pam was a saint.  She held Clark for hours so I could pack and she cleaned our kitchen.


Clark was a trooper.  He slept in my Moby Wrap for hours while I packed, and when it came time to get in the car and go, he slept almost the entire drive (8 hours).  He only woke up to eat and get a diaper change a couple times.  I was proud of him!


It's been so good to be here in Lake Shore (south end of Utah Lake near Spanish Fork).  Ben's parent's are great and have been so accommodating to us.  And it's been fun to be around for family events and to catch up with old friends.  


Ben loves Utah and I can understand why.  He grew up on a ranch and it's beautiful here.  And he loves all the outdoor recreation opportunities - they have horses, boats for running rivers, gear for camping and climbing and access to all the great places that Utah offers.  Also, his family is here and some of my family is too.  It's all around a great place to be.  We would love to live here for longer than just the summer.  But Nutrislice will be in the Denver area so we're headed back there at the end of the summer. 

Time with Wendy U:
A few weeks after Clark was born, a delightful visitor came to our home.  Wendy U was in Denver for a conference and we were so lucky to have her spend a night with us.  We had to give her a little taste of the Colorado outdoors (and we needed to get out of the house) so we hiked Devil's Head trail.  It's a beautiful hike that leads up to a National Park Service fire lookout.








I was a little unsure how it would be to have a visitor just three weeks after Clark arrived, but I think that I needed it more than anything.  It was refreshing to spend time with one of my best girlfriends.  Having a baby was such a life changing event for me that it just felt good to be with someone who has known me for a long time.  Thanks for making the visit, Wendy!

Baba's Visit:
My mom, aka Baba to her grandkids, came to the rescue with perfect timing.  It was so nice to have her help during our first days at home with Clark.  She did all the things that moms are supposed to do when they help daughters with their new baby. She organized all of Clark's things (I did a terrible job with nesting), she did a Target run for us, bought groceries, cleaned our apartment, cooked every meal, and she even took a night shift with Clark so that we could get some sleep.  Wow!  I miss having her around.

I can't believe I didn't get a better photo of Grandma with Clark.

Our Birth Story:
Clark arrived at 12:50 pm on April 10, 2012. His due date was April 8.  On April 9 - sometime around noon, I noticed that I was leaking.  Maybe my water broke?  I've never had a baby before, so I couldn't be so sure.  I was scheduled for a regular check up with my doctor at 1:30.  Because of the leaking, we took our bags for the hospital (which had been packed and repacked several times for the past three weeks) to the appointment.  Good thing, because we ended up checking into the hospital shortly after the doctor confirmed that my water was indeed broken.  I had planned to have an un-medicated birth and prepared for it with Hypnobabies hypnosis techniques, but the small rupture of the amniotic sac that didn't cause labor to start sort of threw a wrench in things.  

The first several hours in the hospital were quite uneventful.  The nurse started me on antibiotics (I had tested positive for group B strep) and we waited for contractions to start.  We probably walked 2 miles in the hospital hallways trying to get things started.  When my nurse's shift was about to be over (7pm), she wanted to start Pitocin to get things going.  I was devastated.  I wanted things to start on their own and just felt that the few hours we were there wasn't enough of a chance to let that happen.  Luckily, my next nurse was much more on board with my plans to go naturally.  She actually broke my water completely so the big gush would finally happen and would hopefully cause my labor to start.  It didn't.  She let me walk the halls (and eat a little - I was STARVING) for a few more hours.  Finally I let her start Pitocin.  She did just a low dose - hoping to help labor to start. 

At this point, I was starting to have contractions, but they were very inconsistent.  They'd start for 15 minutes then stop.  Start them stop.  They even got bigger, but they'd start and stop.  Apparently, this was happening because my baby wasn't in the right position so he wasn't putting pressure on my cervix.  Every time they checked, I was only dilated at a 2.  Let me tell you, that was such a bummer - I wanted progress so that they could stop the Pitocin and I could get back to my original plans.  Instead, the nurse increased the Pitocin and gave me more antibiotics. 

Ben was amazing.  He walked the halls with me for hours.  He cued me in on my hypnosis techniques.  He supported me every step of the way.  

Finally, at 5:30 in the morning, the nurse said it was time to really increase the Pitocin.  She was starting to feel pressure because hospitals want babies to come within 24 hours of the water breaking to reduce risk of infection.  I was so tired.  Tired of hearing that I was still at a three.  Tired of feeling pretty significant contractions that would start and then stop.  And not sure that I could handle more Pitocin induced contractions with hypnosis.  At this point, Ben and I prayed about it and decided it was time to take a different route.  

I got an epidural.  I'll be honest, it was awesome.  I was so relieved.  However, it didn't take long for me to realize that something wasn't right.  It only worked on my right side and I was feeling contractions in half of my body.  It was very strange.  The anesthesiologist tried a couple things and finally, at 8:30 am he decided to start over.  So I got two epidurals. 

I started to find it very funny that not only had my plans not worked, but I ended up in the hospital way too early, had to have two IVs, two epidurals, and seven drip bags of antibiotics.  I was scared that I would have to have a c-section the way things were going.  Ben and I prayed that I wouldn't have to go that route.

Luckily by 10:30 Clark moved into the right position - facing down and back.  I dilated more and was up to an eight.  We were finally progressing.

The nurse had me start pushing at 12:15 and then she had me stop at 12:30 so that the doctor could get there.  My doctor showed up and asked if there was time to change his clothes.  There really wasn't, but there was so he was gone and back in a about 10 minutes.  I started pushing again and within minutes our baby was here!!

As soon as he was out, the doctor put him right in my arms!  He was wiggly, pink, and wet, and had a full head of dark hair.  I'll never forget that feeling.  My baby, whom had grown in me for the last nine months was finally in my arms against my chest.  He felt warm.  He didn't cry.  I kept telling him he was beautiful and thanking the doctor and all the staff.  



Oh the rush... and the love!!  It was the highest feeling of my life.  It was like my heart was beating outside of my body now, and it was the best feeling in the world!



Clark Isaac Roberts arrived at 12:50 pm on April 10, 2012.  He weighed 7 lbs 6 oz and was 19.75 inches tall. 

On Due Dates:  
I know that due dates are mostly guess work.  My doctor explained that they are averages - 50% of women have their baby before then and 50% don't.  The anticipation that I felt in the last three weeks of pregnancy killed me!  At 37 weeks, they say the baby can come and it won't be considered a preemie.  Once I got that far, Clark was welcome anytime and everyone around me knew it.  I couldn't send an email, set up a meeting, or do anything without the caveat that my baby might come.  My due date was a Sunday.  I secretly hoped that I could skip church to avoid all the "you're still pregnant" conversations.  The day came and went, and yes, I went to church.  

What Pregnancy Taught Me:
I learned a few things in pregnancy.  Some lessons I already knew, but they're the kind that I seem to get to learn over and over again.  

Pregnancy is a case study in patience. Nine months sounds like forever and there are a lot of mile stones to reach.  It simply taught me that patience is more than waiting patiently in a checkout line.  It's time consuming and requires endurance.


Pregnancy and child birth also gave me first hand experience in the principle of submission.  I had plans.  I wanted everything to go a certain way.  But when it comes down to it, there's only so much I could do to make things happen how I wanted them to happen.  Additionally, my body changed constantly.  I had to submit to needing tons more sleep, not being able to get around as easily, and watching my belly grow, which is actually kinda fun.  I thought a lot about the Savior and his ultimate act of submission to Atone for our sins.  Not that what I was experiencing could even compare, but it made me realize how complete his willingness to submit to the will of the Father was.  I imagine that it wasn't easy to do.  Submitting is hard.  I am so grateful to Him for what he did for us.


On Baby Showers and Gifts:
I am so amazed at how generous and kind people have been to us.  Four showers were thrown for me.  Each in different aspects of my life. We had a shower with Ben's family and a few friends in Utah.  One at work with all of my "moms" - there were five women that worked in the same area as me whom were around my mom's age and talked to me about being pregnant and birth on a daily basis - they became wonderful friends to me.  My visiting teachers and the primary presidency (I was the primary pianist for a few months) in the Castle Pines Ward threw me a lovely shower, and delightfully, my friend Staci organized a Skype date shower with several of my dear friends from DC.  

I am overwhelmed by the generosity, kindness and thoughtfulness that people have shown me.  We were given wonderful gifts that include enough baby clothes for a year, diapers and wipes to get us through the first month, a fabulous video baby monitor, baby supplies like gas relief medicine and Decetin, beautiful baby blankets - a couple that were handmade and will be cherished forever, books and toys, and practical gift cards that have helped us buy other things we've needed.  I love the Moby baby wrap that I was given and the Itzbeen that helps me keep track of when I fed and changed my baby and how long he's been sleeping.  

Early in my pregnancy, I worried about having a baby shower.  Since living in Colorado, I've met a lot of people, but have made only a handful of close friends.  And I haven't been the best at nourishing my friendships. I also felt like I was too transient and didn't have plans to stay where we were long enough to justify people throwing me a party and giving me gifts.  But I've realized that for many people, gift giving is from the heart and those things don't matter.  Also, this has made me excited about paying it forward when I have opportunities to give.

Saturday, April 21, 2012

Our Litte Addition!

We are proud to announce that Clark Isaac Roberts arrived on April 10, 2012 at 12:50 pm weighing in at 7 lbs 6 oz and a perfect 19.75 inches long.  We're thrilled to have him in our home!

He's a pro at being a baby.   He likes to eat, be held, snuggle, sleep (sometimes he doesn't like to sleep), poop, listen to static noise (his favorite radio station is the one that makes a constant shushing sound), and ride in the car.